this should be the end of everything, and I would like to tell you how it came to this.
Maybe not many people will be interested, and some of you will slap your hand in front of your head.
But I don't know how else to finish with it. And one or the other will hopefully
as a warning before the eyes.
For quite some time I am a silent reader here, especially in the area of no DepositBonuses *g*
well, I am 20 years young soon 21.
Was with 17 times the first time in a Butze, then I became 18, moved into an own apartment,
and the whole fun took its course.
Maybe it is due to the addiction shift of my 5 year drug addiction that I am so affine to the subject of gambling.
Anyway, at 18 I met my ex, at that time for me 'dream woman' (how stupid that sounds).
Maybe it was because of her innocence, maybe it was because of her helper syndrome, she was my Mother Theresa,
as far as drugs were concerned. In the same course, my best friend and I went more and more often to the Halunkenbutzen.
Sometime daily together, then soon only I alone.
Grandma asked for money because the end of the month and no money for food, Dad asked several times a month,
borrowed money from his wife for 'presents for the girlfriend', missed cell phone bill/electricity bill/insurances that go out at the end of the month because no money on account.
Sick to go gambling, lied to the girlfriend that you have to work longer, the usual just.
Then 09/2019 the shock, in my training facility was probably the Tip box (what customers give us in the store) broken open--->paper clip and flathead screwdriver.
But for the 3rd time, and this time on camera.... With me as the lead.
After I on the same day still in tears in his kitchen him the reason, which I me at this time for the first time
(since 1 1/2 years regular gambler) officially admitted in front of others, he has not reacted like 99% of the bosses.
But the insecure, awkward and in itself but nice young man has seen.
The call to my mother followed very quickly. You can't imagine how painful that was.
This never-ending crying of my own mother, who can't get a word out out of desperation and helplessness.
So on 02/02/20 off, 250 km away to rehab for 9 weeks, with the biggest support that tells me every evening on the phone that I can do it, my mother Theresa.
But when you realize where you are at 20 years old, you start asking yourself completely different questions.
You've always made it so far. Be it your crappy childhood, your bumpy and lonely youth, or even the drugs.
Now you're sitting here. Everybody knows you can do it. Except for yourself.
Everything went well the first 2 months, I blossomed like never before. And yet the road led me there again.
First still butzen, due to fear to be seen soon again only online.
playing secretly for 5 months and pretending to everyone that it's over leaves its mark
Mother Theresa can still be so good-natured, but even she is not stupid and notices that something is wrong.
That's why I'm sitting here now. Single for 1 1/2 months, a balance of -1000€ in December,and a failed final exam.
30 OC's have now banned me for either 5 years or indefinitely. I have been doing this for the last 2 1/2 hours before this post here.
We are talking about sums of money that for others are chintzy money.But for trainees like me 500 euros is equivalent to a fortune.
I just want to show how fast it can go and how difficult the way out of it is, although you have the support of your partner or family.
I have managed to confide in friends and am now trying again, supported by outpatient therapy, to find my way back to a normal life.
Everyone who has persevered to this point deserves my fullest respect and thanks!
And @Gamblejoe admins, please have mercy. I would be hugely happy to see this post published.
As a fresh start.
As the clean slate I've wanted to make for a long long time, but haven't made it.
OmG.....impressive, touching. Respect and Chapeau ! You have mastered it up to here
but very well mastered and must remain with it, even if it hurts. You are
young and will surely make it. Stay with it and don't throw your life away. You
only get it once and think of your mom, who made 'life' possible for you, and
all those who support you
Fingers crossed for you......
I also wish you much success along the way. You can do it!
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Brave that you write your story so you are still very young, if you really want to stop then the best time would be right now!
BUT you should make a big circle around GambleJoe there are better forums on the Internet to deal with the subject. Because everything you see here triggers you to gamble again and that subconsciously without you realizing it.
Good luck to you 👍
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Hope you could write your sorrow from the soul
But there are some things I don't really understand: You steal from your boss/colleagues and your boss forgives you and also shows understanding for you. He makes sure that you can go to therapy. So far so good
WHY on earth do you give this person such a kick in the ass? And not only him, it looks like you also showed your girlfriend that you don't give a shit about her trust and instead follow your needs. You must have learned in therapy that you have to make a cut and for god's sake don't chase after incurred losses
This post you wrote here, that will never be able to clarify your real problem. Locking yourself in all "possible" casinos will get you exactly 0 further! These things shoot like mushrooms from the ground and if you do not even kick yourself in the ass, then in 10 years it is not 1000 EUR, but perhaps already 100000 EUR Debt and an education you will probably not have!
You have to roll up your sleeves and turn your life around 180 degrees! You can start by printing your contribution here and smoke in the pipe!
I actually wish everyone who wants to stop with the crap the best. With you I have there so my doubts, somehow you have not fallen deep enough on the muzzle to initiate a real process of rethinking. Hope I am wrong.
In any case, I wish you good luck in the rest of your hopefully game-free life.
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this should be the end of everything, and I would like to tell you how it came to this.
Maybe not many people will be interested, and some of you will slap your hand in front of your head.
But I don't know how else to finish with it. And one or the other will hopefully
as a warning before the eyes.
For quite some time I am a silent reader here, especially in the area of no Deposit Bonuses *g*
well, I am 20 years young soon 21.
Was with 17 times the first time in a Butze, then I became 18, moved into an own apartment,
and the whole fun took its course.
Maybe it is due to the addiction shift of my 5 year drug addiction that I am so affine to the subject of gambling.
Anyway, at 18 I met my ex, at that time for me 'dream woman' (how stupid that sounds).
Maybe it was because of her innocence, maybe it was because of her helper syndrome, she was my Mother Theresa,
as far as drugs were concerned. In the same course, my best friend and I went more and more often to the Halunkenbutzen.
Sometime daily together, then soon only I alone.
Grandma asked for money because the end of the month and no money for food, Dad asked several times a month,
borrowed money from his wife for 'presents for the girlfriend', missed cell phone bill/electricity bill/insurances that go out at the end of the month because no money on account.
Sick to go gambling, lied to the girlfriend that you have to work longer, the usual just.
Then 09/2019 the shock, in my training facility was probably the Tip box (what customers give us in the store) broken open--->paper clip and flathead screwdriver.
But for the 3rd time, and this time on camera.... With me as the lead.
After I on the same day still in tears in his kitchen him the reason, which I me at this time for the first time
(since 1 1/2 years regular gambler) officially admitted in front of others, he has not reacted like 99% of the bosses.
But the insecure, awkward and in itself but nice young man has seen.
The call to my mother followed very quickly. You can't imagine how painful that was.
This never-ending crying of my own mother, who can't get a word out out of desperation and helplessness.
So on 02/02/20 off, 250 km away to rehab for 9 weeks, with the biggest support that tells me every evening on the phone that I can do it, my mother Theresa.
But when you realize where you are at 20 years old, you start asking yourself completely different questions.
You've always made it so far. Be it your crappy childhood, your bumpy and lonely youth, or even the drugs.
Now you're sitting here. Everybody knows you can do it. Except for yourself.
Everything went well the first 2 months, I blossomed like never before. And yet the road led me there again.
First still butzen, due to fear to be seen soon again only online.
playing secretly for 5 months and pretending to everyone that it's over leaves its mark
Mother Theresa can still be so good-natured, but even she is not stupid and notices that something is wrong.
That's why I'm sitting here now. Single for 1 1/2 months, a balance of -1000€ in December,and a failed final exam.
30 OC's have now banned me for either 5 years or indefinitely. I have been doing this for the last 2 1/2 hours before this post here.
We are talking about sums of money that for others are chintzy money.But for trainees like me 500 euros is equivalent to a fortune.
I just want to show how fast it can go and how difficult the way out of it is, although you have the support of your partner or family.
I have managed to confide in friends and am now trying again, supported by outpatient therapy, to find my way back to a normal life.
Everyone who has persevered to this point deserves my fullest respect and thanks!
And @Gamblejoe admins, please have mercy. I would be hugely happy to see this post published.
As a fresh start.
As the clean slate I've wanted to make for a long long time, but haven't made it.
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but very well mastered and must remain with it, even if it hurts. You are
young and will surely make it. Stay with it and don't throw your life away. You
only get it once and think of your mom, who made 'life' possible for you, and
all those who support you
Fingers crossed for you......
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BUT you should make a big circle around GambleJoe there are better forums on the Internet to deal with the subject. Because everything you see here triggers you to gamble again and that subconsciously without you realizing it.
Good luck to you 👍
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But there are some things I don't really understand: You steal from your boss/colleagues and your boss forgives you and also shows understanding for you. He makes sure that you can go to therapy. So far so good
WHY on earth do you give this person such a kick in the ass? And not only him, it looks like you also showed your girlfriend that you don't give a shit about her trust and instead follow your needs. You must have learned in therapy that you have to make a cut and for god's sake don't chase after incurred losses
This post you wrote here, that will never be able to clarify your real problem. Locking yourself in all "possible" casinos will get you exactly 0 further! These things shoot like mushrooms from the ground and if you do not even kick yourself in the ass, then in 10 years it is not 1000 EUR, but perhaps already 100000 EUR Debt and an education you will probably not have!
You have to roll up your sleeves and turn your life around 180 degrees! You can start by printing your contribution here and smoke in the pipe!
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In any case, I wish you good luck in the rest of your hopefully game-free life.
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