i'm coming out of an online casino session and I'm deeply exhausted.
Had won about 4500€ the last 3 days at very low stakes. This money was then also partially spent, but still left some money in my account, because I wanted to save to finally be able to afford my own apartment.
The whole spectacle of saving lasted about a day or two.
A good friend of mine told me not to gamble it all away again, and I assured him that I wouldn't - too many times that's exactly what happened.
Now I stand here again - the 4500€ are gone + was still paid out of pocket, again about 1500€.
My account balance is on 20€ and I hate myself once again for my inability to stop.
I have been at this point a few times in my life though.
Gambled a lot, if not everything, and then hated myself for it and swore never to gamble again.
I've now reached a point where it has to be enough, I've been locked up in "real" casinos and gambling houses for years, yet online gambling and Online Casinos are giving me a big run for my money.
In the meantime, I am 26 years old and have already gambled away a lot by my standards. I think we are in the 20,000€ range.
My job is not badly paid, which is why the money itself is not the end of the world and yet I am so frustrated, disappointed in myself, mad at myself, sad and just every negative feeling I know.
I am aware that I may not meet with encouragement or "you can do it" here and yet it feels good to just write these feelings down, especially in a community that is exactly in this profession and can somehow understand that if necessary.
So many times I tried to stop, so many times I cried until I was so angry that I broke things because I'm so mad at myself and now it's come to a point that I can't and don't want to reconcile with myself at the moment and in the future.
I have been thinking about therapy for a long time and I don't know yet if I really want it. Actually, I would like to prove to myself that I can be strong enough and have enough self-discipline not to give in to my addiction.
My attempt will be to keep reminding myself of how bad I was when I lost everything, and whenever I feel the urge to play, to remind myself of that.
Likewise, I realize that this whole thread is kind of meaningless and doesn't really do anyone any good... except me.
So please excuse my selfishness, but it does a lot of good to write this all down in a community that can relate to it a bit if need be.
Enough.
Greetings to all who have a hard time quitting, have quit and want to quit - you are great!
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28th Aug. 2023, at 01:00 am CEST#2
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Dilemma420 wrote on 08/27/2023 at 21:18: Good evening dear GambleJoe community,
i am coming out of an online casino session and I am deeply exhausted.
Had won about 4500€ the last 3 days at very low stakes. This money was then also partially spent, have nevertheless left some money in my account, as I wanted to save to finally be able to afford my own apartment.
The whole spectacle of saving lasted about a day or two.
A good friend of mine told me not to gamble it all away again, and I assured him that I wouldn't - too many times that's exactly what happened.
Now I stand here again - the 4500€ are gone + was still paid out of pocket, again about 1500€.
My account balance is on 20€ and I hate myself once again for my inability to stop.
I have been at this point a few times in my life though.
Gambled a lot, if not everything, and then hated myself for it and swore never to gamble again.
I've now reached a point where it has to be enough, I've been locked up in "real" casinos and gambling houses for years, yet online gambling and Online Casinos are giving me a big run for my money.
In the meantime, I am 26 years old and have already gambled away a lot by my standards. I think we are in the 20,000€ range.
My job is not badly paid, which is why the money itself is not the end of the world and yet I am so frustrated, disappointed in myself, mad at myself, sad and just every negative feeling I know.
I am aware that I may not meet with encouragement or "you can do it" here and yet it feels good to just write these feelings down, especially in a community that is exactly in this profession and can somehow understand that if necessary.
So many times I tried to stop, so many times I cried until I was so angry that I broke things because I'm so mad at myself and now it's come to a point that I can't and don't want to reconcile with myself at the moment and in the future.
I have been thinking about therapy for a long time and I don't know yet if I really want it. Actually, I would like to prove to myself that I can be strong enough and have enough self-discipline not to give in to my addiction.
My attempt will be to keep reminding myself of how bad I was when I lost everything, and whenever I feel the urge to play, to remind myself of that.
Likewise, I realize that this whole thread is kind of meaningless and doesn't really do anyone any good... except me.
So please excuse my selfishness, but it does a lot of good to write this all down in a community that can relate to it a bit if need be.
Enough.
Greetings to all who have a hard time quitting, have quit and want to quit - you are great!
Dilemma420 wrote on 08/27/2023 at 21:18: Good evening dear GambleJoe community,
i am coming out of an online casino session and I am deeply exhausted.
Had won about 4500€ the last 3 days at very low stakes. This money was then also partially spent, have nevertheless left some money in my account, as I wanted to save to finally be able to afford my own apartment.
The whole spectacle of saving lasted about a day or two.
A good friend of mine told me not to gamble it all away again, and I assured him that I wouldn't - too many times that's exactly what happened.
Now I stand here again - the 4500€ are gone + was still paid out of pocket, again about 1500€.
My account balance is on 20€ and I hate myself once again for my inability to stop.
I have been at this point a few times in my life though.
Gambled a lot, if not everything, and then hated myself for it and swore never to gamble again.
I've now reached a point where it has to be enough, I've been locked up in "real" casinos and gambling houses for years, yet online gambling and Online Casinos are giving me a big run for my money.
In the meantime, I am 26 years old and have already gambled away a lot by my standards. I think we are in the 20,000€ range.
My job is not badly paid, which is why the money itself is not the end of the world and yet I am so frustrated, disappointed in myself, mad at myself, sad and just every negative feeling I know.
I am aware that I may not meet with encouragement or "you can do it" here and yet it feels good to just write these feelings down, especially in a community that is exactly in this profession and can somehow understand that if necessary.
So many times I've tried to stop, so many times I've cried to the point of such rage that I've broken things because I'm so mad at myself and now it's come to a point that I can't and won't reconcile with myself at the moment and in the future.
I have been thinking about therapy for a long time and I don't know yet if I really want it. Actually, I would like to prove to myself that I can be strong enough and have enough self-discipline not to give in to my addiction.
My attempt will be to keep reminding myself how bad I was when I lost everything and whenever I feel the urge to want to play, to remind myself of that.
Likewise, I realize that this whole thread is kind of meaningless and doesn't really do anyone any good... except me.
So please excuse my selfishness, but it does a lot of good to write this all down in a community that can relate to it a bit if need be.
Enough.
Greetings to all who have a hard time quitting, have quit and want to quit - you are great!
Maybe a close person like your mother could be a help for you. You give her a certain amount of your money every month when you get your wages, so that you only have the money to pay your important monthly expenses. This way you would not have the money left over, which always makes you want to gamble. This in turn would have the good effect, that you acquire a savings cushion, with which you can furnish your apartment, which is denied to you at the moment and makes you angry. If your mother manages to stay firm, then this is also a kind of therapy for you. And of course you should also talk to your bank, that they block your overdraft, because then again there would be the danger that you get the idea to overdraw your account to be able to play anyway.
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28th Aug. 2023, at 08:58 am CEST#4
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Don't make the mistake of not getting help, therapy is the best thing you can do, after therapy you can continue to work on yourself, unfortunately Gambling addiction doesn't just go away.
In a therapy or addiction help you are told things that make you really aware that it never goes away and you have to find ways to cope with it.
A Tip: don't try it yourself, talk to people who have expertise.
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28th Aug. 2023, at 12:29 pm CEST#5
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I've been thinking about therapy for a long time, but I don't know yet whether I really want it. Actually, I want to prove to myself that I can be strong enough and have enough self-discipline not to give in to my addiction.
That says a lot and my question is: how long do you want to try to prove it to yourself?
i came across your post while reading the forum posts! I think it's great that you are thinking about your gaming behavior. It's not easy to stop gambling from one day to the next, but you describe that yourself when you say that you've had many attempts but the addiction and the pressure of addiction got in the way.
What I can recommend to you in any case is to get additional professional help. This doesn't have to be therapy right away, even non-binding counseling sessions at an addiction counseling center near you or via various online counseling portals can be helpful. If you like, I can give you more information about this.
I am an employee of an addiction counseling center in Bavaria and also work in gambling counseling. An exchange in the Gamblejoe chat is also possible, if you want to talk about the current situation.
Stay tuned in any case! And above all, stay patient - then you can do it.
Kind regards
Dilara
it is good that you question your gambling behavior and the Tip I can give you after 40 years of gambling is: stop while you are still young because with each year it becomes more difficult, I myself have easily spent a family home on the outskirts of a big city and although I am not in great financial trouble I could sometimes jump out of my skin when I think about it. Not the financial but the psyche is the problem. Seek professional help and go a different way.
wettibernd wrote on 12.09.2023 at 22:23: Hello first,
it's good that you question your gambling behavior and the Tip I can give you after 40 years of gambling is: stop while you are still young because with each year it becomes more difficult, I myself have easily spent a family home on the outskirts of a big city and although I'm not in great financial trouble I could sometimes jump out of my skin when I think about it. Not the financial but the psyche is the problem. Seek professional help and go a different way.
Boredom is also such a problem. This must then be fought with something other than gambling. If you place a few sports bets or play a slot, the boredom is immediately gone, regardless of whether you win or lose. The most important thing is always to have a healthy social life to get rid of it, but for many easier said than done
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13th Sep. 2023, at 08:43 am CEST#10
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Age... The classic... Stop just like that does not work anyway... Ever thought of playing only on weekends... And best not alone but with colleagues... Each 50euro paysafe and fire.... If it's gone, it's gone.... If not then it was fun
my name is Susanne and I'm an employee of a specialist center for Gambling addiction in Germany. I can absolutely understand that you are at a low point. Many other people in your situation feel the same way you do. It all sounds a bit hopeless. But I would like to encourage you a lot. I have met many people and have experienced and accompanied many fates. I think the first step, to see your problem yourself, is the most important. And you have already done that. Great praise and great respect from me that you have outed yourself here. That was very brave of you.
I don't want to force counseling or therapy on you now. I think you have to decide for yourself what you want and how to proceed.
But maybe I can still give you a few tips on how to deal with your problem. Think about when and at what times you played? Try to think of alternatives especially at these times. Are there hobbies or other activities you can do to avoid gambling or thinking about gambling? Think about rewards for times or days when you don't play. Sometimes a small thing is enough, e.g. ordering a pizza, going out for ice cream, etc. Try to remember what will happen if you keep playing. Hang up pictures in your apartment with things you still want to accomplish...... . This can be a motivation for you to stop playing and work on your goals.
Be brave, stay strong. If you really want to make it, you can.
Maybe later you will be able to seek outside help (friends, acquaintances, or even a counseling center....). But this all takes some time. Don't put yourself under too much pressure. Every small goal that you achieve now brings you a little closer to abstinence from gambling.
So, that was a lot of text...(phew). I hope I haven't overwhelmed you. If you have any questions or need help, feel free to write me again directly if you want.
I wish you the best of luck. Don't give up!
At some point everything has its end - It must be enough
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i'm coming out of an online casino session and I'm deeply exhausted.
Had won about 4500€ the last 3 days at very low stakes. This money was then also partially spent, but still left some money in my account, because I wanted to save to finally be able to afford my own apartment.
The whole spectacle of saving lasted about a day or two.
A good friend of mine told me not to gamble it all away again, and I assured him that I wouldn't - too many times that's exactly what happened.
Now I stand here again - the 4500€ are gone + was still paid out of pocket, again about 1500€.
My account balance is on 20€ and I hate myself once again for my inability to stop.
I have been at this point a few times in my life though.
Gambled a lot, if not everything, and then hated myself for it and swore never to gamble again.
I've now reached a point where it has to be enough, I've been locked up in "real" casinos and gambling houses for years, yet online gambling and Online Casinos are giving me a big run for my money.
In the meantime, I am 26 years old and have already gambled away a lot by my standards. I think we are in the 20,000€ range.
My job is not badly paid, which is why the money itself is not the end of the world and yet I am so frustrated, disappointed in myself, mad at myself, sad and just every negative feeling I know.
I am aware that I may not meet with encouragement or "you can do it" here and yet it feels good to just write these feelings down, especially in a community that is exactly in this profession and can somehow understand that if necessary.
So many times I tried to stop, so many times I cried until I was so angry that I broke things because I'm so mad at myself and now it's come to a point that I can't and don't want to reconcile with myself at the moment and in the future.
I have been thinking about therapy for a long time and I don't know yet if I really want it. Actually, I would like to prove to myself that I can be strong enough and have enough self-discipline not to give in to my addiction.
My attempt will be to keep reminding myself of how bad I was when I lost everything, and whenever I feel the urge to play, to remind myself of that.
Likewise, I realize that this whole thread is kind of meaningless and doesn't really do anyone any good... except me.
So please excuse my selfishness, but it does a lot of good to write this all down in a community that can relate to it a bit if need be.
Enough.
Greetings to all who have a hard time quitting, have quit and want to quit - you are great!
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Maybe a close person like your mother could be a help for you. You give her a certain amount of your money every month when you get your wages, so that you only have the money to pay your important monthly expenses. This way you would not have the money left over, which always makes you want to gamble. This in turn would have the good effect, that you acquire a savings cushion, with which you can furnish your apartment, which is denied to you at the moment and makes you angry. If your mother manages to stay firm, then this is also a kind of therapy for you. And of course you should also talk to your bank, that they block your overdraft, because then again there would be the danger that you get the idea to overdraw your account to be able to play anyway.
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In a therapy or addiction help you are told things that make you really aware that it never goes away and you have to find ways to cope with it.
A Tip: don't try it yourself, talk to people who have expertise.
Good luck on your way
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That says a lot and my question is: how long do you want to try to prove it to yourself?
Please get help.
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i came across your post while reading the forum posts! I think it's great that you are thinking about your gaming behavior. It's not easy to stop gambling from one day to the next, but you describe that yourself when you say that you've had many attempts but the addiction and the pressure of addiction got in the way.
What I can recommend to you in any case is to get additional professional help. This doesn't have to be therapy right away, even non-binding counseling sessions at an addiction counseling center near you or via various online counseling portals can be helpful. If you like, I can give you more information about this.
I am an employee of an addiction counseling center in Bavaria and also work in gambling counseling. An exchange in the Gamblejoe chat is also possible, if you want to talk about the current situation.
Stay tuned in any case! And above all, stay patient - then you can do it.
Kind regards
Dilara
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it is good that you question your gambling behavior and the Tip I can give you after 40 years of gambling is: stop while you are still young because with each year it becomes more difficult, I myself have easily spent a family home on the outskirts of a big city and although I am not in great financial trouble I could sometimes jump out of my skin when I think about it. Not the financial but the psyche is the problem. Seek professional help and go a different way.
I wish you all the best.
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That is then the other classic, just so on the weekend "controlled" gamble does not go just so,...
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my name is Susanne and I'm an employee of a specialist center for Gambling addiction in Germany. I can absolutely understand that you are at a low point. Many other people in your situation feel the same way you do. It all sounds a bit hopeless. But I would like to encourage you a lot. I have met many people and have experienced and accompanied many fates. I think the first step, to see your problem yourself, is the most important. And you have already done that. Great praise and great respect from me that you have outed yourself here. That was very brave of you.
I don't want to force counseling or therapy on you now. I think you have to decide for yourself what you want and how to proceed.
But maybe I can still give you a few tips on how to deal with your problem. Think about when and at what times you played? Try to think of alternatives especially at these times. Are there hobbies or other activities you can do to avoid gambling or thinking about gambling? Think about rewards for times or days when you don't play. Sometimes a small thing is enough, e.g. ordering a pizza, going out for ice cream, etc. Try to remember what will happen if you keep playing. Hang up pictures in your apartment with things you still want to accomplish...... . This can be a motivation for you to stop playing and work on your goals.
Be brave, stay strong. If you really want to make it, you can.
Maybe later you will be able to seek outside help (friends, acquaintances, or even a counseling center....). But this all takes some time. Don't put yourself under too much pressure. Every small goal that you achieve now brings you a little closer to abstinence from gambling.
So, that was a lot of text...(phew). I hope I haven't overwhelmed you. If you have any questions or need help, feel free to write me again directly if you want.
I wish you the best of luck. Don't give up!
Many greetings
Susanne
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