i have always been a silent reader, now I have to share my experience.
I keep trying to stop playing, and when I don't play for two weeks, I think a small Deposit won't hurt, and I could see how it goes.
And every time I lose control and start depositing a lot again by my standards.
I'm currently 20 years old, and until a few months ago I only ever got about 200€ alimony.
Now I earn around 2000€ and I realize it's just getting out of control.
I started gambling when I was 16, a friend gave me 2,50€ on a gambling site on his account and I made 700€ from this 2,50€ within three days. There I still had it fully under control, and paid out all the money reasonably and did not spend it on gambling again, and I put it aside.
About a year later I signed up with tipico and kept making small deposits, around 20€ a month only.
In this time I had about 120€ a month and got along with this money also well.
Until I won something again with a 10€ deposit and then it started completely.
I didn't have to verify myself on tipico for the withdrawals, and still don't have to and could play again and again even though I was under 18.
I deposited about 80€ a month from this 120€ and gambled again and again.
This went on until I was about 18 1/2, then I spent all my money on gambling, have always strangely won something and that is in my opinion the time when everything got out of control.
Everything I had in money I put right back in and gambled with, whether I won or not.
I had several times wins of 600-1000€ and was very happy about it, and each time I canceled the payout and continued to gamble until I had nothing left.
This for a year so on, I worked at some point and had around 1000 € in the month available and every f**king time I put around 800 € back into gambling. I signed up at various casinos and gambled again and again.
I estimate my losses until a few months ago at about 6000€.
This is a lot of money for me, since it was the only money I had available.
Now I earn around 2000€ a month and every shitty week I put 200€ in, feel depressed after losing everything, and swear to myself that I won't gamble anymore.
Every week the same cycle, even if I don't gamble all my money anymore, I worry that in the future I will lose so much control that I will put everything in.
When I read the posts here I see myself in the future because I know I will never have control over how I play.
I don't feel like playing anymore, just deposited 20€ again and made it 200€, then completely lost control and within 2 hours I lost all my win + deposited another 500€ which I also lost completely.
I don't know what to do anymore, I know there are worse cases, but I'm just disappointed in myself, because only after losing all my money I realize what I just did and that I'm not myself while I'm playing.
I am usually a person who helps everyone, no matter financially, with problems and always try to stop everyone from doing bad things like gambling.
Unfortunately, I just can't get it together myself, even though I always want to help others.
I just ask you to give your opinion on this, I am really at a loss at the moment because I just can't cope for 2 years.
I have experienced a lot of shit in my childhood, was every week with a psychologist for several years, and in the end also managed to defeat my depression.
Feeling like I'm not in control of something just brings back that depression, because none of my family or friends would think that of me
I'm just at a loss right now and feel "empty" every time after playing.
I write down every Deposit in a booklet and every withdrawal I also note. This gives me an exact overview of how much of my money has flowed into the Online Casinos and at some point when the minus is too high it hurts me and from then on it's a break. When I was younger, as old as you are now, I have not yet made such thoughts and also everything I had money over there I have always spent immediately and sometimes also sunk in the gambling houses. You're only 20, but at least you're already thinking about it that it may not go on and on. Is already times a beginning. Write down everything and when you see what sums you sink in a short time, maybe you will be able to implement the will that you can no longer continue. It is important to put something aside for old age and not to ruin everything, because you invest every euro that is left in the online casinos or gambling houses. If you can't get it together on your own, then the only way is to go to Caritas and get therapy against gambling addiction. This is a very nasty addiction that causes problems for many.
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I just don't want it anymore, but can't help it!
14th May. 2020, at 08:54 pm CEST#4
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Talk to someone in your family about it. 6k is still possible but pull the ripcord now and stop gambling. Get blocked everywhere and that's it. This casino blocker app on it. Log out here. But most important is that you talk to someone about it. Good luck 💪
So you have already made the first right step -> You have recognized your addiction problem and want to do something about it.
Writing here in the forum helps a little bit, but even more if you turn to a friend or family member.
This could take some of the burden off of you. If not, there are hotlines and almost everywhere addiction centers with trained staff.
So that you have first ne chance on a full braking
Oh yes, immediately block all sites where you have ever registered, this is quick and easy.
And do not give up the will to stop.
But as I said, you have made the first step in the right direction.
I wish you strength and perseverance to regain control.
No addiction should determine the life of a person and if nevertheless one should act like you
I just don't want it anymore, but can't help it!
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i have always been a silent reader, now I have to share my experience.
I keep trying to stop playing, and when I don't play for two weeks, I think a small Deposit won't hurt, and I could see how it goes.
And every time I lose control and start depositing a lot again by my standards.
I'm currently 20 years old, and until a few months ago I only ever got about 200€ alimony.
Now I earn around 2000€ and I realize it's just getting out of control.
I started gambling when I was 16, a friend gave me 2,50€ on a gambling site on his account and I made 700€ from this 2,50€ within three days. There I still had it fully under control, and paid out all the money reasonably and did not spend it on gambling again, and I put it aside.
About a year later I signed up with tipico and kept making small deposits, around 20€ a month only.
In this time I had about 120€ a month and got along with this money also well.
Until I won something again with a 10€ deposit and then it started completely.
I didn't have to verify myself on tipico for the withdrawals, and still don't have to and could play again and again even though I was under 18.
I deposited about 80€ a month from this 120€ and gambled again and again.
This went on until I was about 18 1/2, then I spent all my money on gambling, have always strangely won something and that is in my opinion the time when everything got out of control.
Everything I had in money I put right back in and gambled with, whether I won or not.
I had several times wins of 600-1000€ and was very happy about it, and each time I canceled the payout and continued to gamble until I had nothing left.
This for a year so on, I worked at some point and had around 1000 € in the month available and every f**king time I put around 800 € back into gambling. I signed up at various casinos and gambled again and again.
I estimate my losses until a few months ago at about 6000€.
This is a lot of money for me, since it was the only money I had available.
Now I earn around 2000€ a month and every shitty week I put 200€ in, feel depressed after losing everything, and swear to myself that I won't gamble anymore.
Every week the same cycle, even if I don't gamble all my money anymore, I worry that in the future I will lose so much control that I will put everything in.
When I read the posts here I see myself in the future because I know I will never have control over how I play.
I don't feel like playing anymore, just deposited 20€ again and made it 200€, then completely lost control and within 2 hours I lost all my win + deposited another 500€ which I also lost completely.
I don't know what to do anymore, I know there are worse cases, but I'm just disappointed in myself, because only after losing all my money I realize what I just did and that I'm not myself while I'm playing.
I am usually a person who helps everyone, no matter financially, with problems and always try to stop everyone from doing bad things like gambling.
Unfortunately, I just can't get it together myself, even though I always want to help others.
I just ask you to give your opinion on this, I am really at a loss at the moment because I just can't cope for 2 years.
I have experienced a lot of shit in my childhood, was every week with a psychologist for several years, and in the end also managed to defeat my depression.
Feeling like I'm not in control of something just brings back that depression, because none of my family or friends would think that of me
I'm just at a loss right now and feel "empty" every time after playing.
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So you have already made the first right step -> You have recognized your addiction problem and want to do something about it.
Writing here in the forum helps a little bit, but even more if you turn to a friend or family member.
This could take some of the burden off of you. If not, there are hotlines and almost everywhere addiction centers with trained staff.
So that you have first ne chance on a full braking
Oh yes, immediately block all sites where you have ever registered, this is quick and easy.
And do not give up the will to stop.
But as I said, you have made the first step in the right direction.
I wish you strength and perseverance to regain control.
No addiction should determine the life of a person and if nevertheless one should act like you
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